Fairytale World

The ‘Happy Ending’- do we really want it or scared of it? Do life ever will have a happy ending? What is ending anyway, Death? How come that be a happy ending. Married to your loved ones is a happy ending? finding the right partner is a happy ending? Achieving milestones in your career is a happy ending? Being another genius like Einstein? What is happiness anyway?

Living in the moment. Like a football player focused on the ball and trying hard not to lose in a game and nothing else in his mind. When do I live in a moment? I guess, never. Why? Why are you not content? What’s bothering you? Let’s start counting:

  • Depressed
  • Sexually Impotent
  • Broken Marriage
  • Failed to achieve Dreams
  • My Nihilism
  • Atheism
  • Misfit

Wow! You need a therapy lesson, maybe a good psychiatrist would be able to help you. You must take to your friends, share more.

Well, you know I am a nihilist, so the above suggestion doesn’t make sense at all. I am convinced and believe that this is it. I kind of doesn’t want to break the cage of this despair, because all my life this was the only constant thing that lived with me. Opening a cage is scary plus in past whenever I had opened the cage I am back here to rescue. The world out there is scary. Like, I have to speak with people. Isn’t that scary to you?

You know, you are a psychopath. You must consult a serious doctor immediately.

Haha… What will he do? Like, Buddha went on a journey to find what this life is about? Like, Kabir said, “माटी कहे कुम्हार से, तू क्या रौंदे मोय । इक दिन ऐसा आएगा, मै रौंदूंगी तोय ॥” अर्थात मृत्यु के पश्चात मनुष्य का शरीर इसी मिट्टी मे मिल जाएगा । What’s the purpose anyway? All this is going to vanish, I am into Earth, Earth into Sun, then Sun will also collapse and will die one day. Who the hell am I here? I am not even a dot in my city, forget the world and universe.

Nothing makes sense. you know I am a coward, can’t face my problem on my own. The people trying to help me, all feels useless anyway. I am not going to recover my own normal, your abnormal, maybe because I don’t want to.

Are you a drug or Porn addict?

Of course, I am not, It’s a sober thought, can’t you see my consciousness recognises and admit his present existence. You know what, let me live in my crazy fairytale world and you live in your real-world, practical, status-oriented judgemental world.

Go to Hell then, Die


—————- Bad Ending —————-

I wish I had jin pot, then I could resolve all my dilemmas. The thing is I could have wished for the above list but then I have made furthermore lists of things to feel disappointed of.

Seek Help

From whom? No one cares, No one will. My existence doesn’t matter at all. It’s all useless. Also, I don’t even have a single friend to whom I share my own self. I am a lonely dot.

Keep yourself busy, don’t overthink, do not give yourself time to think absurd. It is ONLY your own thinking that makes the problem BIGGER than what it is.

Man seeking a woman to hold his hand in tough times, A woman seeking a shoulder and arm on which all her problems vanishes in thin air. No one gets the right one. I am always unsatisfied with her/him.

The search for being content can never be in someone else, it is within yourself.

What the hell is that supposed to mean?

Seek Help from professionals, help yourself.

BetterBET Lessons

—————- Happy Ending —————-

Have patients, Move slowly, Don’t be too hard on yourself, Live freely, Develop guts

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